Tuesday, January 24, 2012

TASK 2 : GET REAL

OK So this year is all about me and to be honest it's a little scary that I'm putting it all out there but to be really honest It took me last Round to really find myself and realise all my excuses and see the ones that I used along the way through my journey last year.

SO this year it's time to change and make a shift to the BETTER me the Real me the ME that I see in the mirror the one that is fun, loving and FOCUSED
Task 2 is all about Getting real and to me that means dealing with some pretty heavy demons...
I completed My Excuses and Their Solutions section of the task and here is what I wrote.

INTERNAL EXCUSES are The self talk that goes on between the Jekyll and Hyde in your head.
WHAT EXCUSES DO I USE:
I’m too tired to work out,
I’m not motivated to keep going,
I’m so far gone it’s not worth even trying I have so much weigh to lose why bother,
I’m too unfit there is no way I could ever run,
I will fail like I've done before,
I’ll look silly exercising what must people think?

HOW WILL I CHANGE:
Put those joggers on every morning 1st thing just like brushing your teeth.
Remember why you joined your overall goal is to be healthy and get pregnant.
Baby steps it's all about what you can do today.
The only way I can get fit is to work at it...EXERCISES!
Failing isn't an option!
Who cares what others think THIS YEAR IS ABOUT YOU!

EXTERNAL EXCUSES within your control: These are excuses prompted by external factors but which you still have some control over.
WHAT EXCUSES DO I USE:
I'm too Busy ....
I have to catch up with friends/family
Its so hot
I forgot not organised

HOW WILL I CHANGE:
Be honest your not that BUSY to not put yourself 1st.
Plan ahead of time don't miss out on LIFE!
Put AC on and do a DVD
Every Sunday night plan the week ahead!

EXTERNAL EXCUSES outside of your control: These are external factors that you have absolutely no control over, real emergencies.
WHAT EXCUSES DO I USE:
To be honest I don't know what they would be until they happen...

HOW WILL I CHANGE:
Try to arrange different times to exercise and get family to help keep you focused on your overall GOAL....

So there you go it's all out there now!




Wednesday, January 18, 2012

WHEN WALKING COUNTS

Ok so they say mix up your training and I usually do however this week has been crazy busy for me so I have been walking a lot lately as well as using Mish's DVD's & It worked this week I have lost 1.6kgs that's great considering that I haven't been eating that clean last week so Yay to me. I love being able to go for a long walk and walking just before sun set around my place is amazing. I also had to show that walking can burn big Cals.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

MAKING IT BIGGER

OK so 2011 was a year of home truths and honesty, of no longer hiding behind my excuses and making a change and I have to give my self some credit I lost weight 15kgs to be honest however during the last week of the program my body wasn't feeling right and I found out I was pregnant??? What the I wasn't planning on it however it just happened however a few days after finding out and planning to tell family I had a miscarriage...BUGGER! not again I said to myself, why me....What have I done so wrong that has taken me through so many heart breaks 8 to be honest over the last 12years. I started to fall into an emotional pit that seemed so deep there was no way of getting out. Just when I was felling sorry for myself  I started to remember the times, money and effort that was put in over the 12 weeks and 
 that reminded me that I had said "I was worth the effort".
SO I PICK MY SELF UP (after a naughty Christmas & New Years & Birthday weekend) AND MOVE ON...


I attended my 1st Pain in the Park (the day afte my birthday where I ate to much cake) and all I can say is OMG well that's what I said through most of the training session "yes I was the winger in the group". TO be honest I couldn't finish the circuit training. I had never done that type of training before and I felt that I was going to puke as well as fall flat on my face cause I was so dizzy... Then the tears started and while I was crying I was trying to just say JFDI in my head but all that emotional shit I dealt with over Christmas came pouring out of my eyes...I now understand that I emotinaly wasn't ready and I was worried about sharing to much about me to people I didn't know very well YET!!! IT was a little awkard talking to people about my personal dissopointments How much is to much?
However I will be back that wont stop me! In the past I would have just walked away from the program the training gotten in my car and said NO THANKS don't want to deal with me or my issues however last year made me a stronger person some one who will no longer just give up. I stayed talked about it a little to my fellow 12wbt champs and promised to be back again. I wanna train harder this round and push my self like never before. SO I did something I wouldn't have done last round and that was join a walking group in the Nepean. Well to be honest we came from all over but it was so lovely to walk with some amazing ladies with so many different life experiences and
some that are just starting there 12wbt journey....
I'm looking forward to moving onward and up ward with you all this year!!!


Monday, January 2, 2012

Choices, Chances, Changes

Hello Fellow Bloggers,

I have to be honest in here however I have been too ashamed to blog about it until now.... I fell off the wagon.....Very Hard!  After coming home from the Round 3 2011 group work out and the party I received some slack from my family about working out and partying so soon after just having a miscarriage...I was devastated I was trying to convince them that I wasn't pushing myself and that I needed that time to reflect over the last 12weeks of working my butt off literally. However after thoes comments and the whole Christmas time I fell into a Black hole and had trouble picking myself back up. I promised myself that I wouldn't ever fall again however I did and hard I put on about about 5kgs since party night and I know why I have pin pointed the issues and will now work through my pain to recreate that motivation I had when I 1st started the journey.
After a long, Heartfelt talk with my husband who has been my rock through this time I'm BACK and ready for action. So much so that I'm sitting here all sweaty after a fast paced walk and the completion of Mish's Cardio Shredder and 764 Cal's later feeling much better about this path I'm taking.
My goal is to be well and truly back to my last weigh in weight before kick off in Feb. I really want to loose another 25kgs before falling pregnant again.So the beginning of 2012 will be the hardest time for me but I'm sure I will make you all proud.
I will promise to keep you updated on my journey, as I am motivated more then ever to make this change. Your comments and thoughts are greatly appreciated as they keep me going!

Sar
xxx

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2011 THINGS I KNOW NOW!


Talking openly helps. 

I found myself and realised that I'm worth the effort.
Don't take it Personally.

I'm not perfect and I do make mistakes.

If there's somebody or something toxic in your life let them or it go.

Diets DO work.

And Friends can get you though anything.

Family is my everything.

Life is what you make it.

Don't let your misfortunes hinder on your efforts.

Forgive yourself.

Don't dwell in the past concentrate on the present.